i understand if you dont understand me.
theres a different side of me that not everyone will understand or even see. if you think im a very complicated, youre wrong. im always the same and will be the same.
theres this other side of me that not eveyone will know. the serious, the not so fun. no so cheerful. but the serious side of me. i understand if you think im weird cos i dont show this side of me often. but nonetheless. i understand.
theres this side that will feel something. will feel when im judged. will feel when im betrayed. will feel when im insulted using my words. but if you see that i suddenly turned out to be rather angry or upset. or suddnely burst into tears, you just got to understand you managed to reach to the other side of me. its a rare thing. but i understand if you dont understand the sudden burst of ‘bubble’ i never expect anyone to understand. i never expect anyone to take that shit for me. its for me to take only. not for anyone else. but nonetheless, i understand if you judge that side of me. i understand if you dont understand this sudden change of emotions from me. all in all, i understand.
i dont expect anyone to read this post as well. even if you do, you dont have to tell me cos i dont expect to impose this expectation from you. you dont deserve it. you dont deserve to take any shit from me. but all in all, i thank you for being there during the times that you understood me. but i also understand if you dont understand this other side of me.
noone deserves to know this shitty side of me. no one.